I'm numb. Painfully numb.
On Tuesday, Morgan and I were shocked to find out that I am pregnant. You may remember that we were on a break from the meds this cycle because of the Clomid cysts. Well, it happened anyway.
So we went to the RE for blood work since my history requires early monitoring. We got our results later that day...Betas came back at 77.
In a healthy pregnancy, that number should double roughly every 48 hours. So I want back for a repeat test today. The results were not positive.
My betas today were at 129. They hadn't doubled and weren't even that close. I also started spotting a tiny bit late this morning.
So, we are facing our fourth miscarriage. The RE did say that some babies are just slow growing and sometimes take closer to 72 hours to double. But all things considered he wasn't particularly optimistic. We will repeat the blood work Monday which will hopefully give us a better idea about what's going on.
I don't want to do this...face the next few days. It's too hard. It's too sad. It's too painful.
If you're the praying type, please say a prayer for me and for this baby. We need all the prayers we can get.