94 = Number 4
The grief is unspeakable. This was not my rainbow baby. There may never be a rainbow baby.
I'm in a dark place. Any control I felt I had over my life is long gone. And I don't understand why or how this is happening again. But it is.
4 miscarriages in 11 months.
The physical loss hasn't happened yet, so these next few days will be long ones for me. I apologize in advance for my absence.
But, I do want to thank everyone who reached out to or prayed for me and Morgan over the last few days. Your support really is unbelievably helpful and comforting.