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The Empty Frame

In our upstairs hallway is a gallery wall. Filled with smiling happy pictures of Henry, our wedding -- the usual. And, there is one empty frame.

Originally, they were all empty And slowly we've found the perfect pictures. Pictures that Morgan and I are happy to look at all day, every day. But, through this process, we've struggled to fill the final frame. Did we really need more pictures of Henry? He's really cute, seriously, but how many pictures do we need of him in one space? More pictures of us? No. Our dogs? Didn't feel right.


So, it sat empty, just waiting for the perfect picture. Then, it dawned on me. The picture hasn't been taken yet. Our family isn't complete. Sometime, somewhere, somehow we have another child waiting for us. In that moment of realization, I got the courage to try again to get pregnant. I've struggled for months to decide where I wanted to go after my last loss. And, deep down, this was my answer.

Believe me, even typing that out gives me anxiety and brings up tremendous grief. But, that picture frame represents hope and our future. It's a physical sign that we want more. Even if I'm terrified, and feel pretty much hopeless, a little spark of hope exists even if I can't fully articulate it.

The picture frame will sit empty. It will wait. And, we will hope.

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Comments

Anonymous said…
What a beautiful thought. Good luck.
Ashley said…
I know the feeling of loss and emptiness. I hope your frame is filled soon!
Unknown said…
I will hope for you too <3
((hug)) Your next child will be lucky to have you for a mother (just like Henry!)
Kaysha said…
Praying for you and your family!
This is beautiful! Your hope is so inspiring. You'll be in our prayers!
Lindsay said…
This is beautiful! You guys will remain in my heart and thoughts. <3
Heather said…
Beautiful post and i wish for the best for you - i can't wait to see what your future holds.
Love, light, hope and prayers are being sent your way. Call me if you need to talk :)
Unknown said…
I love this. It made me smile. You will get to fill your frame :) xo

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