Our first RE appointment is tomorrow. I'm so excited -- 6 weeks without having a plan has been killing me. But I'm also super nervous. I just don't know what I want out of this appointment.
Part of me is so scared, although this is unlikely, that the RE is going to say "you're hopeless, time to move on, be happy with the kid you have." Ok, so maybe that is really really unlikely. But, I am really afraid of a low percentage of success and knowing that we may walk away with more bad news.
On the other hand, I'm super afraid that he's going to say "easy, peazy, you're going to be pregnant is no time." Because, then I have to be pregnant again. And, I think its safe to say that the anxiety I have about getting another positive pregnancy test is pretty daunting at the moment.
I know, I'm coming off a little crazy here. Fear of not being able to get pregnant, fear of pregnancy. Perfect. So...that's where I'm at.
I'm coping by nervous crafting today. Painting wooden crates I picked up at Goodwill and some wooden letters for Hen's big boy room, that is officially getting underway. At least I can use my nervous energy for some good.