I never imagined I would be in this place. Ever. But, I’m guessing no one does. I've tried so
hard to remain positive over the last year, so hard. But, I am totally defeated.
Another cycle has come and gone in our TTC journey -- but, not
without seeing two pink lines. {Morgan doesn't like me to swear on the blog so
insert expletive of your choice here}. Let me say that I took the tests early. Stupidly early
because I feel like it is the only part of this whole process that I get to
control. I get to pee on that stupid stick whenever I want, and that helps me
deal. Anyway, I wasn't expecting much from that first test and after 5 minutes it
was negative. Nothing.
But a couple minutes later -- the second line showed up. I’m
obviously not new to the TTC world, I know it could have been an evaporation line
and that the test has to be counted as negative. Except I've seen 20 evap.
lines in my time and this line was pink as can be. I thought “I’ll test again
tomorrow, that will settle it.”
Ha.
The next day, the same thing happened -- faint positive just after the time limit. Then, it happened again on the next three tests I took. All faint positive pink lines all slightly after 5 minutes. {Insert another expletive}. I wasn’t super surprised when the cycle ended. All the signs were there and I didn’t get attached to the idea of a pregnancy.
I can't say for sure that it was another chemical pregnancy, but it's likely. After this, my OB and I have changed our game plan. I will now be taking progesterone once I have confirmed ovulation until the end of my cycle. If I happen to get pregnant, then I will continue taking it through the first trimester.
My OB has given us three cycles for this to be successful, or else she is sending me to the infertility specialist. So, if all goes well, I'll be starting the new treatment next week. Honestly, I'm dreading it. My OB warned me of the negative side effects of progesterone and I guess it can be pretty rough. Ugh.
But, what choice to we have at this point? It's basically this, or stop TTC and see the specialist. I guess hormone supplements are the lesser of two evils.
Anyone else take progesterone prior to pregnancy? Did you have any negative side effects?
Ugh :( I'm sorry mama. Been there done that, full on miscarriage than 13cycles with a chemical pg thrown in there. What made my evelyn stick was progesterone (And acupuncture)! I hope it works for you too!! Hugs!
ReplyDeleteUgh, its so frustrating. I actually saw your post on acupuncture and thought I should look into it, and I really should. At this point, I'm pretty ready to try anything.
DeleteI am sorry you are dealing with this. Did you have trouble conceiving Henry?
ReplyDeleteNo, we didn't. His conception, pregnancy and birth were all textbook normal and easy.
DeleteI'm so sorry, Nicole. I took progesterone (I think it was called "Prometrium")very early on in my pregnancy with Charlotte because of the problems we'd had with my first pregnancy. My OB suggested that I take it at night before bed so I never really had to deal with any of the side effects of it. I think I stopped taking it at around 14 weeks (very nervously stopped taking it) and it was fine. Good luck and hang in there! Sending hugs and well wishes your way.
ReplyDeleteThanks. I've heard the "take-at-night" trick from a few people. Problem is my prescription is for 2x a day. Hopefully, it won't be too terrible.
Delete((hug)) If it helps me and progesterone were besties, I loved it. What kind are you taking? (pill, suppository, cream?)
ReplyDeleteSuppository 2x a day.
DeleteYou're definitely in my prayers. Keep your head up!
ReplyDeleteI used Crinone (cream inserted vaginally) in the AM. It caused me pregnancy like symptoms and some cramping after using it but besides that it's not that bad symptom wise. The annoying part of it is dealing with the discharge and buildup of the cream that doesnt get absorbed.
ReplyDeleteI just found your blog and love it! I took prometrium for a few months before we conceived our son. I don't remember any side effects though so hopefully you don't have them either!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. Been there too. Had my daughter via IUI and my son thru IVF. I had progesterone both times as a suppository. I did not have any side effects and I just kept thinking of it as a good thing. I felt I would do whatever to make the pregnancy stick!
ReplyDelete((HUGS)) I'm so sorry. I think I've mentioned before, but I had four losses prior to E and started using progesterone the cycle before she was conceived. It obviously worked for me. :-) I hope it works for you too!
ReplyDeleteI didn't really have any side effects that I can remember, but I took it as a suppository also and my RE said you experience fewer side effects that way.
Good luck!!!